While I had no specific date set for concluding my fasting, it seemed that two weeks ago, yesterday, would be a good time. I had been richly blessed, and had felt to express my gratitude. The problem was that during the course of fasting, I received even greater spiritual blessings. I was trapped.
And secondly, he doth require that ye should do as he hath commanded you; for which if ye do, he doth immediately bless you; and therefore he hath paid you. And ye are still indebted unto him, and are, and will be, forever and ever; therefore, of what have ye to boast? (Mosiah 2:24)
While I wasn’t commanded to fast, per se, this nevertheless applies. Two weeks ago today, day 41, I was distinctly told to continue. It was the last day of the Boise conference, which was a rich spiritual experience. But, the most profound experience followed the conference during the first few hours riding Joy’s motorcycle back towards Spokane. As an aside, crying for hours on end can make a mess out of the inside of the helmet shield.
Our Father taught me in a most profound way about His character. I shared a little of what I learned over a month ago about His meekness (see: I Finally Get It and Three Unusual Experiences). This experience amplified those teachings to a degree that I could not have conceived. I learned a little of the deep love that He has for each of us, and what He wants for each of us. I know, you are probably thinking: God — love — got that. I thought I did. What I know now transcends my wildest imaginings. I wish I could share, but this is not the time or place. But, it is quite important that I testify of His love, and that His desire for us to return to Him is as great as is He. I am now convinced that if we could truly know the magnitude of His love, compassion, and sacrifice in our behalf, we could not sin; we simply could not disappoint Him.